life, philosophy

Curiosity, Challenge and Acceptance

I really don’t know how to lie. It comes naturally for me to speak my truth, and yes, sometimes it gets me in trouble.

On another note, I’ve admitted numerous times on my blog, I have trouble letting go of what I don’t have control over.

Stick with me, I plan to tie these two statements together. We’re going deep into the recesses of my mind today. Could be a horror show, so be prepared.

Side note: My husband tells me to let go of giving him directions as he drives. I did so over the weekend, and he missed a turn. Haha. It was no big deal. We just had to go around the block. We got where we were going in the long run, but I thought it was sort of funny.

Okay, I digressed to lighten the mood a moment. Back to my deep thoughts and the points I’d like to make. I had posted about how the recent shootings had me digging for answers on the web. I followed-up on that post by saying I was letting it go and moving on. I didn’t lie, because I intended to let it go, and I did for a time. Eventually, I couldn’t help myself and continued with research. I’ve been learning things not only about the shootings, but so much more. I’m not sorry either. I’ve come to accept that I’m a naturally curious person. My curiosity drives me to learn, learn and learn some more.

We live in significantly historical times. What is happening in our world right now will be forever remembered. Granted, these are also scary times, and some bad things may continue to go down, but our society is trying to figure out who we are. It’s trying to balance morality with liberty, justice with truth, and freedom with responsibility. I’m fascinated with what I’m learning behind the scenes and watching it all evolve.

However, this does bring up a challenge for me.

I want to tell everyone about what I’m learning and how it’s like watching a fascinating thriller movie. But, I have to hold back, because not everyoneย  cares about this stuff the same as I do. It’s difficult for me to stifle myself.

My blog is about philosophy, deep thinking, and the psychological, mental processes of the human mind. So, instead of sharing all I’ve learned, I’m expressing the mental process I’m going through.

In summary, I had planned to stop searching for answers and let go, because I’m a control freak. I intended to do so, but it turns out that I’m naturally curious. It’s okay for me to ask questions. I’ve accepted this about me.

My challenges: 1) Accept what I’ve learned and don’t bombard others with the knowledge. 2) Don’t freak out over a lack of control as I watch events play out.

I’m up for these challenges . . . they make life more interesting.

Now that I’ve probably made no sense to anyone but myself . . .

Have you ever embraced something about yourself that you once thought was a problem? Do you find challenges outside your comfort zone fun or interesting?



17 thoughts on “Curiosity, Challenge and Acceptance”

  1. Yes and yes,but I’m not giving any details! As for sharing other stuff on your blog that may not be related to its stated purposes, I say just do it. If readers don’t want to learn about whatever, they can always just skip over that post.

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  2. I’m also very curious and I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that – I think curiosity and learning make life so much more interesting. I sometimes think I should have been a teacher because I have so much in my head that I’d like to share ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. I think we both have a lot in our heads we’d like to share. Perhaps we release some of that in our writing and on our blogs. In a way we are dropping seeds of teaching?

      Thanks for the thoughtful comment, Andrea.

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  3. I’ve accepted and embraced some things about me that I refused to recognize early on. It made my life much easier. My husband calls me a back seat driver but if I don’t say something, we’ll end up in another state.

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    1. Hi Kate. Like Lynette said, acceptance seems to get easier as I age. I’m also finding out that I’m far from the only woman directing their husband’s driving. Heh.

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  4. Derek calls me the “Question Queen”…I want details! Although I don’t try and control others, I do like my own personal space in control. I have no sense of direction, so I leave that up to Derek. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. The Question Queen. Love it. I think many men are not as inquisitive as women. I always ask Gary why he didn’t ask this or that when he tells me he ran into someone. ๐Ÿ™‚

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  5. We may not have control over world events, but I like to be in control of my own life. I don’t need to control others. As for asking questions, we need to question everything, be it ever so fleetingly, before we decide to accept or reject ideas. That’s part of being in control of our own lives. The driving directions??? Hahaha. Like Pam, I’m the designated navigator and without my input we always end up going the long way around.

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    1. I’ve asked questions all my life. I wrote a short story about how when I was a kid, I raised my hand in Catechism and asked questions about God that the teacher didn’t really like (never published the story). So, I can appreciate when you said we ask question and decide whether to accept or reject ideas. I also might add that I don’t always do either of those two things. Sometimes, I decide not to decide and keep the answer open-ended. IOW, I think it can go either way.

      The husband-direction thing doesn’t seem to be only me. LOL And you see how my guy missed our turn when I let things go. Hehe.

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  6. Oh yes! I have come to accept many things about myself – I can also be controlling (and insecure) – such a nice package. ๐Ÿ˜‰ I worked hard to minimise those tendencies though. As an ACoN (an adult child of (a) narcissist (s) ), I got a load of stuff to work through from a young age, insecurity being a big one. I also did not manage my relationships well – I really was quite screwed up. I’m not all fixed either – I’m a work in progress.

    That work is becoming easier as I get older though. So I’ve either accepted myself or I don’t care much any more. ๐Ÿ˜‰ I think it’s actually a combination of self-examination and acceptance.

    Definitely I’ve taken on challenges outside my comfort zone. I’ve had a tendency throughout life to take on things if they scare me or make me uncomfortable. Facing them usually reduces my discomfort, but not always.

    A thought-provoking post. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    1. Hi Lynette. I also find that as I get older it gets easier. I liked when you said, “…it’s actually a combination of self-examination and acceptance.” Thank you for your input.

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  7. Yes, constantly. ๐Ÿ˜ but I also give my guy directions and when he doesnโ€™t listen to them, he also gets lost. And I secretly chuckle. Actually, I think it is very important for us to ask the questions-always .

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