I really don’t know how to lie. It comes naturally for me to speak my truth, and yes, sometimes it gets me in trouble.
On another note, I’ve admitted numerous times on my blog, I have trouble letting go of what I don’t have control over.
Stick with me, I plan to tie these two statements together. We’re going deep into the recesses of my mind today. Could be a horror show, so be prepared.
Side note: My husband tells me to let go of giving him directions as he drives. I did so over the weekend, and he missed a turn. Haha. It was no big deal. We just had to go around the block. We got where we were going in the long run, but I thought it was sort of funny.
Okay, I digressed to lighten the mood a moment. Back to my deep thoughts and the points I’d like to make. I had posted about how the recent shootings had me digging for answers on the web. I followed-up on that post by saying I was letting it go and moving on. I didn’t lie, because I intended to let it go, and I did for a time. Eventually, I couldn’t help myself and continued with research. I’ve been learning things not only about the shootings, but so much more. I’m not sorry either. I’ve come to accept that I’m a naturally curious person. My curiosity drives me to learn, learn and learn some more.
We live in significantly historical times. What is happening in our world right now will be forever remembered. Granted, these are also scary times, and some bad things may continue to go down, but our society is trying to figure out who we are. It’s trying to balance morality with liberty, justice with truth, and freedom with responsibility. I’m fascinated with what I’m learning behind the scenes and watching it all evolve.
However, this does bring up a challenge for me.
I want to tell everyone about what I’m learning and how it’s like watching a fascinating thriller movie. But, I have to hold back, because not everyone cares about this stuff the same as I do. It’s difficult for me to stifle myself.
My blog is about philosophy, deep thinking, and the psychological, mental processes of the human mind. So, instead of sharing all I’ve learned, I’m expressing the mental process I’m going through.
In summary, I had planned to stop searching for answers and let go, because I’m a control freak. I intended to do so, but it turns out that I’m naturally curious. It’s okay for me to ask questions. I’ve accepted this about me.
My challenges: 1) Accept what I’ve learned and don’t bombard others with the knowledge. 2) Don’t freak out over a lack of control as I watch events play out.
I’m up for these challenges . . . they make life more interesting.
Now that I’ve probably made no sense to anyone but myself . . .
Have you ever embraced something about yourself that you once thought was a problem? Do you find challenges outside your comfort zone fun or interesting?