When my husband and I were first dating and going out to eat, he told me that he ate to live, he didn’t live to eat. I was foreign to that concept. I’m Italian. Flavor is all I know. I lived for flavors and how to make something even more flavorful the next time.
My favorite flavors are garlic mixed with oregano and olive oil on spaghetti, linguini or angel hair pasta. With sweets, it’s dark chocolate…in any form. Semi-sweet chocolate chips and/or cookies, dark chocolate muffins, brownies, cupcakes, cake, in milk, etc, etc, etc.
From my Church Windows recipe made with semi-sweet chocolate chips and colored marshmallows.
I couldn’t imagine eating only to survive. To me, it would be like having sex only for procreation without any sensation or passion.
After we’d been together for a few months, my guy had more than his share of my family’s home cooking. And umm, he completely switched his thinking. Turns out, he’d only been fed bland meets and potatoes most of his life and didn’t know there was a whole world of flavor out there.
The hubs and Mom after making pasta from scratch together.
Between the sweets mentioned, along with pastas and breads, sugar has become an addiction for me. Personally, I believe humans are more resilient than we know and can eat anything we want, as long as we don’t do it in gluttonous proportions. I’m ashamed to admit, my sugar addiction is gluttonous. I crave the heavenly sweet granules morning, noon and night. I couldn’t stop eating it, even when I tried. The sugar detox I went on a few years ago gave me withdrawal symptoms not too unlike going off heroin. I swore I’d never do such a detox again, because it almost landed me in the hospital.
That detox I did in Florida was negated after moving back home to Chicago, where we are famous for pizza, hot dogs and Italian beef sandwiches. Not to mention the abundance of deli’s and bakeries.
Over the past 2 ½ weeks, I tried my hand at changing my diet again, only with a different food itinerary this time. I found one that included supplements to ease withdrawal (amino acids). It also included some low carb vegetables and fruit, where the last diet did not. This new diet offers lots and lots of protein for breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Here is my summation up to this point. I have experienced some withdrawal symptoms, but nothing as serious as the last diet. I’ve had tiredness and been cranky, along with a couple of blood-sugar drops where I felt faint. But, it’s still much better than the last diet where I experienced blinding headaches, shaking and arrhythmia.
I’m going to be honest, I’m not loving this change. I had hoped to lose at least a couple of pounds by now (would like to lose 20). I can’t be sure, because I NEVER weigh myself, but my tight clothes still fit tight. I have a pain issue that prevents me from exercising, but I had hoped the diet might help with the pain because my usual diet was said to cause inflammation.
Even though I season my food, it still pretty much sucks. I despise eggs. I’m not a big fan of red meat or pork, but I used to eat it if mixed with other foods. Now, I have to eat it without the pasta, rice or bread. No matter how much I season these foods, sometimes I almost gag trying to get them down (especially eggs). I love chicken, but a girl can only eat so much. I don’t like turkey either. Fish is okay, which I have also been eating. I think if I eat one more salad, my blood will turn to lettuce.
In the diet plan I’m using, it states that if a person was given a lot of antibiotics as a child, and/or has alcoholism in the family, they could grow up with a sugar addiction. As for me, I had both, which explains why the sugar addiction has been so powerful for me.
The good news is, my husband and I are doing this together. We support each other when it gets tough, but the withdrawal symptoms can also cause us to get cranky with one another.
It appears my life is now eating to live, instead of living to eat. I don’t look forward to eating anymore…I dread it. I’d rather skip it altogether if I could. I miss my dark chocolate Dove squares. I miss oil & garlic based pastas. I miss rich, tangy red sauce over ravioli’s or cavatelli. I miss soft vanilla ice cream. Most of all, I miss my powdered chai tea with honey, sugar and vanilla.
The thing is, with my addictive quality, I don’t think I’ll be able to eat just one Dove dark chocolate square, or two, or three. Like a substance abuser, once I start, I don’t know how to turn it off. I may never be able to take even one bite again.
I don’t usually write long posts, and I especially try not to write complaint posts. This diet is effecting my outlook right now, and I’m hoping things will level out. Thank you for indulging me.
Why do you think humans were given sensitive taste buds? Do you think it’s so we could enjoy eating? Should we live to eat or eat to live?