I don’t know how to do it. I have no idea how to function in chaos. I’m terrible in an emergency. I don’t know how to explain it, but my brain doesn’t connect the dots in disorganization. My mind freezes. You may have figured this out about me when I wrote about getting a call that my husband had an accident.
The only way I can function is when things are organized and planned out. I had to have been born this way, or have some sort of OCD, because I do not know how to move forward in disorder. I’m not in any way exaggerating, and I’m a bit ashamed of it. I feel useless in a crisis.
A few of weeks ago, I wrote about finding calm in that inner “sweet spot,” but in hectic situations, I completely forget that spot exists.
In recent posts, I wrote that I might not be around the blogging world for a bit, but I’ve still been around. The reason is because what was supposed to happen was postponed by a couple of weeks.
I was going to blog about all of the chaos ready to ensue in my life, but I don’t want to make this into a complaint post. It’s more about not being able to function when so much is happening at once, and wishing I knew how to better cope. I get frustrated with myself for panicking.
Briefly, we bought a house which needs remodeling. Have to pack and move while I have treatment for a pain condition. I have a surgery coming up on my hand. We’d also like to find time to help both of our mothers with the health issues they are experiencing. All within the next six weeks.
I started working to get my novel ready for Kindle Scout and re-releasing my memoir anthology, but now I’m sad that those things will be left by the wayside until things settle down.
Blogging actually brings me some peace of mind, because I enjoy it, but unfortunately I won’t have the time for a while. I have future posts of inspirational readings scheduled to go up, because I enjoy lifting spirits, but comments will be closed (in the future, not today).
Hope to hang out with you all again soon. For now, feel free to respond to my desperate questions below.
How are you when things are hectic and disorganized? Can you keep a calm head and grab the bull by the horns, or do you freeze and not know where to turn (like me)? Do you have any helpful tips to help me unfreeze my brain, besides “take deep breaths” as I’m hyperventilating?