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A Dog Who Once Lived …

 . . . inspired a human to live a fulfilling life.

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On the date of June 9, 2009, I lost my soul mate, my hero, my wise sage, Piezon (aka, Bubba). I honored him on the petloss message boards yesterday. I honor him every year on the date, and since last year was the first time I had this blog, I posted about him here.

I still think of him every day of my life. I know it may seem odd to some, but I can’t even begin to explain the marked impression this dog left on my life. He came to me at a huge turning point. I had to decide whether or not to pursue motherhood in a different way. He grounded me, and I made my decision. He filled all the roles I needed at that point. He became my son, my parent, my sibling and my friend. Back then, I wrote a poem about how I lost all of those relationships when he left. I won’t post it now, I don’t want to make this about the grief, but about honoring his presence in my life. 

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I’ve written a  lot about Piezon, even before he died. A short story I wrote about him when he was still alive and healthy was published in the book Dogs and the Women Who Love Them.

When I grieved, the poetry overflowed out of me like flooding waters. I now have lots of poems about a dog who once lived and inspired a human to live a fulfilling life. Thank you for supporting me in his memory. He loved everyone, those of you whom he met, and those of you he would’ve loved to have the pleasure of meeting.

My husband and I couldn’t figure out who took this photo (below). We always joked that Piezon must’ve held the camera out and taken a selfie.

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Here is the tree we planted in his memory. We call it the Pie Palm. You can see how much it’s filled in since last year, here.

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May you be frolicking in paradise my sweet boy, amongst angels, and grandma, of course. Until we meet again.

Until one has loved an animal, a part of one’s soul remains unawakened. ~ Anatole France

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22 thoughts on “A Dog Who Once Lived …”

  1. He sounds like he was a wonderful friend who was very well loved. I’m sure he’s having a blast in puppy paradise. Maybe one of my cats is nipping at his tail. My cats always thought they could play like dogs.

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    1. Thanks for reading about him, Megan. Your kitties might have a hard time finding Piezon’s little nub (no tail) under his fur. But, I’m sure they can find other ways to get his attention. 😉

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  2. Piezon sounds very special, Lori. A dear companion indeed. It’s interesting how some animals seem to be like this. Our cat, Hunter, the stray, seemed almost human at times. Like he Knew. Piezon sounds like that.

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    1. Hey Kathy. Yes, despite Piezon’s high energy, he seemed to have a sort of awareness. My new dog, Max, is great and I love him very much. I don’t know how to explain it, but Max has sort of a more childlike, naiveté, where Piezon seemed wise and mature even as a puppy. There was something spiritual about him. I could talk about that dog forever, so I’ll stop here. I know you understand, having had the same with your cat, Hunter. Thanks for reading about him and helping me keep his memory alive.

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  3. A beautiful tribute to Piezon. Your feelings of loss sound perfectly normal to me. My Bo has been gone almost 10 years, and her cat siblings a little longer. I miss them all, and much as I would like four legged furry ones in my home again, currently their footprints are too big to fill 🙂

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    1. I certainly understand how much you love your Bo and her cat siblings. Thank you for keeping Piezon’s memory alive with me by reading what I wrote, EllaDee.

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  4. Aw what a beautiful tribute. It brought tears to my eyes. My dog has filled so many roles in my life. I am grateful for each day with him. I love the tree you planted in your dog’s memory. 🙂

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    1. Thanks so much for reading about my dog, Kourtney. It feels good to keep his memory alive this way. We have them for so short a time, it’s good that you’re grateful for every day with yours. Thanks for the nice comment.

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  5. There’s no replacing a special relationship like that, even if you bring another dog into the home. It’s been more than 20 years since my childhood dog passed, and I’ll still dream about him now and again. And I think about him a lot, too. So far, I haven’t been able to bring home another one.

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    1. Hi JM, Thanks much for reading about him. You’re right, there is no replacing a relationship like that. Piezon was my first dog, and I didn’t get him until I was 35. I can understand why you haven’t been able to bring home another. It was very difficult to do it. I appreciate you remembering Piezon with me.

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  6. What an amazing gift you had in Piezon. I fully understand how a dog can fill up the big holes in your heart. My dogs have done that for me, especially since my kids have grown up and begun to leave the nest.

    I’m so sorry for the loss of your very special boy. You held my hand when I had to let my Bella go. I hope that you had someone as gracious as you were to me to help you work through your grief and loss.

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    1. Hi Terri, Piezon left in indelible mark, and I feel the need to remember him with others on his anniversary. Thank you for reading about him and sharing in his memory with me. That is always helpful. I hope you are doing okay in the loss of Bella, as I know it’s still recent. You can always email me if you need to.

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  7. A beautiful tribute to Bubba. I hope he has met my Laddie Over the Bridge. Sometimes I cry even though Laddie left me in August 2006. Every day I wonder if I could have done more. The photo of the two of you shows the shared love. Peace. I would like to read the story you wrote while he was still alive.

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    1. I think we’ll always get tears on occasion missing our special heart dogs, Linda. I know I do too. I wondered if I could’ve done more for my Piezon for a while, but I’ve since found peace with that. I’ve seen how things have aligned in my life the way they were supposed to … all because he went over to the bridge when he did. I swear that dog had a sixth sense. I still feel him with me today, even though I can’t see him. I’m sure he heard your message to meet up with your Laddie. Thank you for reading about my boy and supporting me in remembering him.

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  8. This is so sweet and beautiful, thank you for sharing it. He always reminds me of Porter so much. Losing an animal is just….gut wrenching. Also, great idea with the palm, I love it. I will do something similar somewhere down the road. Giving something life and having the constant reminder–I just love it.

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    1. Thank you for reading about him, Lauren. It’s so nice to know that others are remembering him with me. I’m glad you enjoyed it. Give Porter a hug from me.

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  9. Gosh I love the expression on his face in that pic! It does look like he took it himself haha I almost feel like I know this dog and I definitely know how you feel about him. 🙂 It’s amazing how much they’re a part of us This is so sweet.

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    1. Thank you, Pete. I really appreciate you reading about him. It’s important for me to keep his memory alive. Thanks for the nice comment too. We still laugh at that photo of him, envisioning him holding out a camera with his paw. Hee, hee.

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  10. What a warm and moving post, and such lovely photos. I had an experience quite recently of losing an animal I had grown incredibly close to in the just 8 weeks or so that we were together, so I resonate with your deep sense of connection.I wrote poetry too – just for me, not to be shared. It helped. Many blessings, H xxx

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    1. Warm thoughtful hugs to you in recently losing an animal. The deep connection is always there, but much more difficult to know/feel without their physical presence. Thank you for reading about Piezon, and helping me to remember him. Blessings to you too.

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  11. It’s always sad to lose our pets. Some people treat their pets like they’re only furniture (or worse). Ours are like members of the family. It’s more rewarding but it hurts when they die.

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    1. Boy, does it ever hurt. With the passage of time, I’m able to remember him with smiles & gratitude. Thanks for reading about him, Anneli.

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