I’m mad at myself. Okay, maybe not mad, more like disappointed in myself.
When I was away in Chicago a few weeks ago, two difficult things happened. In order to spare you the details, let’s just say they could’ve been long lasting difficulties. They scared me, and my mind went directly to the worst case scenario. I freaked out. I worried. I fretted. I stressed. I agonized. If you can think of any other synonyms, I did those too.
I tried to get a hold of myself and went off to a quiet place to clear my head and pray. Do you know what happened? Something came over me … a warm, calming comfort that told me everything was going to be okay.
Do you know what I did after I left that place of comfort? I freaked out. I worried. I fretted. I stressed. I agonized.
Do you know what happened? Everything turned out okay.
Back at home in Florida last week, a new difficulty popped up. Again, my mind went directly to the worst case scenario. I freaked out. I worried. I fretted. I stressed. I agonized. After a couple of days, do you know what happened? Everything turned out okay.
Why didn’t I trust that sense of calm before? Why can’t I just trust Grace, God, the Universe, Higher Power? Am I the only one who goes directly to the worst case scenario?
Given the tragedies that those in the northeast are experiencing, I really need to tone down the worry. Somehow, some way, I will learn to live in that place of comforting peace more often.
Let’s pray for that sense of calm for our neighbors, and that soon, everything will be okay.
Lori's Lane 
Oh my sweet! I don’t like our freak-out times. If I wanted to, I could freak out right now. For some reason, the mind is refusing to Go There. But it has Gone There so many times in the past. You are not alone. Oh no, you’re not. Love…
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Heh, so true, if I wanted to I could freak-out right now too. That’s funny. Thank you for validating dear Kathy. 🙂
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I don’t accept calm and peace easily either. I’m always waiting for … expecting … the worst to happen. I think that sometimes we feel that if we’re not worrying, we don’t CARE enough.
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That’s a great point, Terri. Thank you for sharing it.
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Lori, I think we all do that at first – me too, but after a bit of thinking .. I calm down and take it for what it’s. We don’t like changes – none of us really, but when we have come to terms with the fear, we take them on. I think we all are in this way … more and less. I belong to them .. who do it less – you maybe belongs to them that do it more .. but we all do it.
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Thank you so much for sharing this, Viveka. It’s good to know I’m not alone. Hugs.
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