Caveat: This was drafted on Friday the 13th, and is being posted today.
Okay, I’m writing on the fly right after a very frustrating event, so let’s see how this plays out with me just writing from emotion. I’m not calmed down yet, so here goes …
My husband and I understand that we can’t change our difficult circumstance, but we can change how we handle it. Except, right now, I feel like someone else is in control of our lives. Not just anyone else, but one incompetent person. Am I just being a control freak, or am I justified in feeling this way? Let’s see what you think.
Everything is going on schedule. We were ready for the next phase in his healing process, when someone interceded and hindered our forward progress.
For those unaware, my husband was seriously injured on the job back in April. On June 4th we were told by the doctor that the next phases of his healing process would be scheduled for June 18th, and the next for June 24th. I watched the doctor write it down in my husband’s chart as he spoke it aloud. We were told that someone would call us to schedule those procedures.
In brief, the scheduler never called. We called and left voice mail after voice mail, to no avail. On June 13th, we insisted the office staff get the scheduler on the phone. The scheduler answered and proceeded to tell us that there is no availability for those dates the doctor wrote down. We have no idea when he can move forward now. If this person would’ve called us when the doctor ordered the scheduling two weeks ago, would we have gotten in on the dates we were told? I don’t have an answer to that question.
How can my husband ever move forward in his healing/circumstance, if some incompetent is in charge of his forward progress? He is ready to move forward. The doctor has documented that he is ready to move forward. One person is controlling his life and holding him back.
How does one let go of control in this case? What does one do? I’m trying to dig inward and find a way to accept this circumstance and adjust my attitude. It isn’t working.
Have you ever dealt with someone else being in charge of your fate? If so, how did you handle it? Any suggestions for us?